My husband and I spend a fair amount of time apart. Not always by choice. His job is always taking him here or there and I am very lucky to be able to go with him often. I also am lucky that he supports me in going on trips with girlfriends or family, and I like to take advantage of that. We are pretty independent and I feel really trusting (maybe even overly trusting) of him. I think the time apart is really healthy for our marriage. Neither one of us feels like we can't pursue personal interests and even though we miss each other like mad, we always come home to someone who loves us and that is really nice to have. It's one of the only things that I feel like keeps me being me.
When I'm not the one leaving it's a little bit harder. I am a good self starter and great at keeping myself occupied. I am somewhat of a loner mixed with a little bit of homebody so I kind of like to have a few days to just recharge. I miss having company, but it's nice to have "me" time.
Still, there are some downsides. Hubby is the cook, therefore I find myself hungry a lot more frequently. I rarely watch tv because he's always the one with the remote (I know that seems silly, but it's just a weird habit I've gotten into). The cleaning is not very consuming because it actually stays clean. The worst part about all of it is not being able to sleep at night.
There's something about a man sleeping next to you that makes you feel safe. Although I am sure that if something happened, he would be equally freaked out. Even when he's not actually in bed with me, it's comforting just to know he's there. When he's gone I will keep myself up as long as I possibly can to keep myself from lying in bed awake and imagining all the things that could go wrong. It's an exhausting routine I create for myself, but I'm not really sure how to change it. It really is no fun. He's been gone for over a week and although having company has helped, I am so ready for a good night's sleep again.
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