Pity Party

Just give me a moment in time to have a break down- and when I'm done I promise I'll move on.

We've been gone almost one year now. Out of sight, out of mind continues to prove it's infinite truth. People move on. Only we really haven't. We're stuck in limbo. Which makes the detach even harder. No new life, no new friends.

So- to 6 more months and then a brand new life. Free of all the things that held us back or tied us down and on to things that will take us someplace. Hopefully someplace, this time, that we really want to be a part of.

Goodbye. Delayed and finally.

"We have more similarities than differences"

I had a high school teacher who told us this all the time. He was a general encourager of people to overcome labels, bias', racism, and rifts. Although he didn't always make the strongest argument, I can at least see where he was trying to go with this.

My brother is the perfect example. He never sees anyone for more than just human. He doesn't let gender intimidate him, he doesn't let age affect his friendships, and he would never not love someone for how they look or act.

When he was in kindergarten, I was in high school. One afternoon my mom asked me to go pick him up. After he showed me his classroom and desk he strapped on his huge backpack that hit against his calves when he walked. As I walked him out of the school we passed some of his little kindergartner friends in the hall. Not one passed without him saying, "Hey Josh!" or "See you tomorrow, Zack!" He has always been the friendliest kid you've ever known. So then we pass the janitor and he yells out, "Have a good night, Ed!" and Ed responds, "See ya T!" It was so funny! But even more than funny, it was admirable. The kid had only been in school for two or three weeks and he already knew everybody there!

He's continued to be like this his whole 20 years of life. Parents will bring their small children over while visiting with my mom and the kids will ask, "Where's T?" It's so cute.

I really admire that quality. I wish I were more like that and strive to be the more I find friendships in unlikely places. I guess it's true that we really have enough similarities to overcome our differences.

Just Saying....

1- I think maternity photo shoots should be outlawed. Or people should at least be required to wear clothing and not show their naked, ginormous, stretch-marked bellies. It's just not right.

2- Twilight is ridiculous. I tried to get into it- I started with the first dreadful book and after wanting to claw my eyes out, just couldn't pick up another. Then I saw all three movies, mainly out of an effort to not be a social outcast. Turns out- I still hate it. What the hell do people love about this anyway? Am I just incapable of grasping this whole concept? Spare me.

3- I find great pleasure in the fact that July is already here. This year has not been the best (ahem.... one of the worst) and the sooner it ends for me, the better. Some years are just like that. 2003 and 2007 to name a couple.

4- My hubby has really stepped up his game in school. It's like the big happy surprise of the year and I once again think he may graduate in December. I dare not even hope so hard....

5- Regardless of the dullness of the summer, I do have a few things to look forward to: a bridal shower, a double baby shower, a baby blessing, my nephew's 3rd birthday party, and possibly a travel venture in the future, which is still uncertain at this point. Still, things to participate in are always nice.

6- I really miss my friends. Still. Especially a handful of them in particular. I wish I had the power to coordinate a girls trip. Alas, I do not.